This is what I’m reminding myself of…
”We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same.”
Easier said than done, right now.
I went to the gym where we’re staying and was hoping to get a good cardio workout in. Instead I felt exhausted (for no apparent reason), weak, and my hip hurt.
So instead of making myself miserable with a spin that felt like crap on the bike, I decided to foam roll and call it a day. I did a med ball workout that made me feel absolutely so weak and I wish I could say I was invigorated and challenged to get back into shape, but this feeling out of shape is new for me. I had thoughts like “it’s your fault for letting yourself go” and “why haven’t you been doing weights every day for the last month–you’re just wasting your time” and “you’re lazy” but that’s all bull shit, ya know? Cuz I have been keeping up with things — swimming, taking time for myself. I read this post about the emotions around an injury on Healthy Tipping Point after I got back and showered and had a good cry about this all.
I’m trying to reframe: I’m with my family. I can take time and read. I can relax. I will be able to run again. I’m just realizing how much of a part of me training is. And how much I miss it. I cannot wait to get going again! But if I rush it, I’m going to end up off for longer and more miserable. I am glad for the experience–I think I’ve realized more about myself in the last month than I have in ages. The time to think, the perspective, the frustrations–they’re all part of bigger lessons!
Last night was good, btw. We had some good dinner (margaritas on the rocks included–but I couldn’t drink most of mine) and I swear this is the proof that everything is bigger in Texas! I couldn’t finish my meal–in fact it hardly looked like there was a dent in it. I blame it on the oyster appetizers we shared and on the salad I filled up on first. I ordered pasta with arugula, red sauce, and shrimp/mussels/crab meat. I’m taking out the whole sea. Eeeeek. Good thing I’m EASING into vegetarianism. I had room for a bit of Godiva when we got home, and then I slept like a baby.
This morning was a repeat breakfast.
And now I’m just waiting for UBC to call me for an interview with their J school. Seems a little pointless, since my life plan has taken a 180 (more on that later)–you’ll all hear about it soon enough. The new blog is getting closer and closer to being ready for it’s reveal. Who’s excited?!
We are off to the aquarium and a few other fun things today–indoor cuz it’s foggy and the weather is a bit yucky here today. Stay tuned! :)
Any advice for my silly injury?
What’s your fav kind of sea food?